I hate nightmares! :(

Last night I had nightmares about Phillip dying. They were the saddest dreams ever, and I woke up crying several times throughout the night. When I woke up this morning, I couldn't help but feel relief that he's still here with me. The thought of losing him scares me so much, since I know that's the only way we'll ever be apart. Let's just say, it was a terrible night and I'm going to give him a huge hug when I see him tonight.