Yes, you read right, this is the 300th post on the blog. So it should be exciting, right? Well I've been waiting for over 24 hours to update so I could try to post something uplifting and happy, but the truth is, I'm feeling so bogged down.
I have some people close to me going through some really hard times right now and it's hard to focus on school and what I need to do because I'm hurting too much for them. I find myself trying to figure out ways to fix it all instead of being happy for the good things happening.
I'm also still waiting on SMU. I'm beginning to think that I didn't get the job and that this job hunting is yielding no results. I've applied to over 20 jobs and SMU is the only one that really seemed interested. So what am I supposed to do if the place I feel like I'm meant to be at doesn't want me to? What if I got this fancy college degree to be a receptionist? I really am turning away from the idea of nursing school even more these days, but wonder if it needs to be a good "back-up plan."
I need to sublease my apartment too. No nibblers yet on the facebook ad and I'm afraid things aren't looking up yet. I still have time, but not as much as I'd like. I want the perfect subleaser to come along and take this burden off of my shoulders. If not, this is yet another thing contributing to the stress of finding a job to pay that rent.
Please start looking up. I'm feeling pretty deflated right now.
7 months, 1 day, 5 hours, and 45 minutes
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