Hot

This Texas heat has got to go. I get exhausted just looking outside. All I want to do is go swimming but I don't have the time or someone to go with. Today I spent 2 hours walking accross campus in the heat with limited indoor A/C. I am drenched in sweat and need a shower. Don't worry, a shower is first on my list as soon as I get back to the apartment.

My exam this afternoon went okay. I don't think I made a 95 like I wanted to, but we'll see. There's always a chance! I'll keep you posted. Tonight I'm making two study guides and studying for my microbiology lab exam that's at 8:30 am.

Almost done!

Just Keep Swimming!

I need to find more motivation. I mustered up a lot tonight to write my lab report and compile a study guide for my exam tomorrow, but I’m afraid I’m still running out of fuel. Don’t worry, I’ll still make all of you proud, I just might have to try extremely hard to do it.

Tomorrow I have my Environmental Health final at 2:00pm. I’m nervous about this one because I don’t have a cushion and would looooove to get a 95 on it. Microbiology lab final is at 8:30am Thursday. I feel like it will be more difficult than I think it will be – it covers a lot of material since we haven’t had an exam in there in two weeks – but it counts the least. Thursday night at 6:00pm I have my Sexuality final exam. This is the one I have the most natural knowledge in (thank you work!) but I’m afraid I’m overestimating myself. And finally, Friday at 12:00pm is my last final of the summer session – Microbiology lecture. It is comprehensive and covers 14 chapters. Yikes! I need a 50 to make a B in the course and a 100 for an A. I’m hoping for the latter, but realistically knowing that I have a nice cushion to get a B. Bs are great for me!! :D

Off to bed for the night.

P.S. I have found that listening to spa music while writing/studying makes me feel more relaxed about the material and also feel like I am in a spa. Bonus.

Quick Update!

I'm almost out of work for the day, but figured I'd post real quick so I can get to work as soon as I get home - so much to do!! I have to catch up on my lab notebook, complete prelab questions, write a lab report, make a study guide for environmental health, and breathe somewhere in there. We'll see how this goes.

Only three more early mornings left to go!! :)

People Pleaser

I don’t know if I have mentioned this previously, but the salon I ordered my dress at has a complimentary “bridal party” they will do for me. At this party, all of my bridesmaids get to come out and see me in my dress as well as try on all sort of bridesmaid dress styles. There’s wine and appetizers and an all-around good time.

Well the tricky part about all of this is finding a date that works with everyone – which I am finding is rather difficult. The dresses need to be ordered by the beginning of November so there’s enough time in case any unforeseen mishaps occur. I’ve given all of the Saturdays I am available out to my girls to see what they think. So far, not so good. It’s already looking like one or two won’t be able to make it – and I haven’t even heard back from one of them yet.

So tonight I kind of had a breakdown. This has been coming for quite some time, seeing as I have been under so much stress and am pretty sad lately. Luckily, Shauna happened to facebook chat me right as it all started crumbling and the tears started flowing. She talked me through it.

I like to think that I go out on a limb for people and will go out of my way and stop at nothing to do whatever it is that they want me or need me to do. Sometimes this is to a fault. I want to be dependable and strong and always there at a moment’s notice. This is particularly seen when it comes to these bridesmaid dresses. I am so concerned with what everyone else wants and how much everyone else is wanting to spend. I want to make sure every single one of my bridesmaids is overly joyed with every aspect of the dress.

Shauna basically gave me a swift kick (that I needed) by reminding me that it’s my day and I should be the one with the final say in the dresses. She said that I should be able to pick a dress that I am overly joyed with every aspect of and that all of the girls should be happy because it is my day and not theirs. This idea struck me as something that was wrong, but after thinking about it, she’s kind of right.

I think about all of these girls and their weddings in the future. If I am a bridesmaid for their (or any of my other wonderful girl friends’) weddings, I will go in completely expecting to have a dress hand-selected for me with no questions asked. I would expect to have to shell out money for a dress I am not 100% pleased with for the sake of it being her day. Why can’t I expect that out of them?

I mean, obviously I am not going to look for some hideous dress nobody likes and some outrageously expensive price tag, but there’s not need for me to go searching for a one-size-fits-all dress that every single girls will like with her whole heart. I mean, let’s face it, that’s nearly impossible with six girls wearing them and another three plus women weighing in.

Maybe Shauna’s right. Maybe I need to realize that this is my big day (and Phillip’s too of course) and that we are allowed to be a little selfish. I need to stop giving everyone such a huge voice and focus on the only two people’s that matter – Phillip and me. Sorry if this sounds selfish, I just want to be less stressed. There I go apologizing again…

And if stressing less means making more selfish decisions, I need to swallow my pride and do it.

Nursing School and Grad School = BIG WEEK!

Not only do I have four final exams this week, but I am applying to Nursing School and Grad School! Yay!!!

Today I got all of the materials together for TCC’s Nursing Program, since the application was released today. All it needs is a transcript that is already in the mail and I’m good to go! It’ll be so exciting to have it all turned in and have the ball in someone else’s court for once.

This week is also Grad School application week! I have been working on it throughout the summer, but this week I should be able to finish it. The first deadline isn’t until August 13, so I have some time but I want to finish it early. All I have left is to send the application fee in the mail, make sure my references are finished, and submit a statement of purpose. That last one will be an ordeal and may not get finished this week but at least the rest will.

I’m almost done and then I can relax and wait for hopefully one of them to accept me. I’ll definitely keep you posted!