11 Days

until I embark on yet another year in a long-distance relationship. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I'm already missing him. He's a big part of my life and I don't know what I'm going to do without him again. I have no idea how I've gotten through the last 2 years. They were painful, believe me, but every year it seems like a new experience. Every summer, we come home and it's like we never left each other, so the start of each semester is like starting all over again. The only good thing about this year is that we're on the downside of the hill. Only 2 more years and we'll never be apart again. I've forgotten what it feels like to be with him for more than 3 months at a time. I can't wait to see him every day again, and to not dread either of us leaving - because we won't be leaving.

But now, I try to soak up every bit of time I have left with him. I'm already getting teary-eyed. :(

Sometimes a little more attention is needed. Sometimes feeling like you're the most important 100% of the time is nice. Tonight I haven't felt that way. :/

Happy August?

Two weeks until I move back to College Station. While I admit I am really looking forward to getting settled into the new place and being back with my awesome friends, I am not looking forward to leaving Phillip. This summer we've been able to spend so much time together (despite him being in Arlington) and I've gottent to spend the night with him. It's been a great summer. And now I have to leave? Not fair.

I can't wait until I don't have to leave. I can't wait until I can spend the night with him every night. I can't wait until we're living together. I must be patient.

Emotional Day

Phillip and I went to a wedding today. Phillip was actually in the wedding, as a groomsman. It was nice to see him dress up and walk down the isle to participate in such a romantic day.

As I was watching this ceremony of our friends, I couldn't help but take what the pastor said to heart. He said "It's not about finding the right person when you get old enough and mature enough, but rather finding someone to grow and mature with you." Those words really got to me and made me realize that you can find something so young and make it last. What Phillip and I have is real. It made me fall in love with him even more.

He also talked about being pure and transparent with each other at all times. How powerful. If a person can be themselves entirely in front of their soulmate, it's love in one of its purest forms. I feel like I have that love with Phillip. I have never felt more myself than I do with him. I don't have to appologize for being me, or feel like I have to look or act a certain way. What a great feeling.

After the wedding was said and done, Phillip told me he can't wait until we have a wedding. He's always said he wants a wedding and wants to marry me, but that's the first time he said he can't wait. That excites me because now I feel like he wants to get married and is ready to get married. Of course, we'll still wait until summer 2011, but it's nice to know that he's ready.

Overall a great day. :)

Busy Summer

I have been super busy this summer and so swamped! I haven't had much time to write, but today I do so I'm going to write.

So far, Phillip and I have been able to spend so much time with each other. It's been so great! Last week we went out on a date to the Studio Movie Grill. It was by far, the best date I've been on with him in at least a year. Other than that, we've just hung out a lot.

2 more of my friends got engaged this week, and 2 people I've known for years got married this summer. It's really hard for me to be patient when other peoples' excitement is thrown in my face. :/ Jealousy is definitely a feeling I've felt a lot this passed week. But alas, I will wait my turn. Every day I wait, the more exciting I'll be when he proposes. God has a plan. I will follow it.

I move back to College Station in 4 weeks. I'm not excited to be doing the long-distance relationship again, but at least I'm halfway through with it.

I'll keep you posted, as always.