Exciting!

So Phillip has decided to come down to College Station this weekend!! He'll be here on Thursday and will stay until Saturday night or Sunday morning. I'm so excited!! We weren't going to be able to see each other for another 2+ weeks, but now we get to. I can't wait!

23 Days and Counting...

This will be the longest we've gone without seeing each other since Phillip was at Mizzou. It's pretty depressing and I miss him already. You forget how much you need someone, how much you love someone, and how much you like spending time with someone, until you can't. May 14th can't come soon enough. And you'd better believe I'll be running to him as soon as I step foot in Bedford. I'm ready for a full summer with the love of my life. But until then, I must miss him a little more each day. :(

Just Hanging Out

So Phillip came in town last night to see me. :D

Today, we ate at Laynes (of course), went to the mall and Academy, and then saw "I Love You Man" before coming back here to work on his schedule for the rest of college and start watching the Rangers game. Pretty soon we'll be ordering Chili's to-go and eat it in the dorm. I love spending time with him. :]

Earlier today, we had to huddle under the same umbrella and walk all the way from my dorm to the Veterinary Sciences building, where his temporary parking permit is good at. It was definitely interesting and I got dominated (as Phillip said) by a car splashing in the runoff rain. It's been pouring down rain here all day.

So what's in store for the remainder of the weekend? Well, tonight we'll just hang out and watch some tv. Then tomorrow my parents and grandparents are coming up from Houston to spend the day here for Parents' Weekend stuff. There's a BBQ, craft fair, and maybe a concert that we'll be going to. Plus, I'll give the grand tour and show my grandparents the bonfire memorial once again. It'll be fun.

Sunday, I plan on sleeping in with the love of my life and lay around all day until Phillip has to leave that night. He was going to leave on Monday, but he has an advising appointment that day. After he leaves, it'll be another 3.5 weeks until I see him again. I'm not happy about that. It'll be the longest I've been without him since he was at Missouri. :( Look forward to sappy "I miss you" posts.

Nursing School = The Monkey Wrench

So about this time last night, I decided to start looking into different nursing schools' fast-track programs for after graduation.

I was floored by what I found out.

Well, first let me say that Texas Womens is probably my first choice for being a little more low-key than UTA (but still 98.7% NCLEX passing rate!), and for having a ton of impressive information about their post-bachelors-degree program.

But what I found out is that the program starts June of 2011 (more specifically, around the 6th if you base it off of this years date). And due to it being an accelerated program, it meets pretty much all day every day until August 2012. Therefore..... getting married in June or July of 2011 is most likely no longer an option. :(

So what is most likely going to be the solution? Well, it's still too early to fret and worry too much, but it seems like we will be getting married on one of the last 2 Saturdays of May that year. Meaning, I will graduate college, get married, and start nursing school all in the span of one month.

Crazy right!?

I know we can do it, and I would have no problem with getting married in May. I've already decided to do a little more summer school than planned so I can be a half-time student for both semesters of my senior year, giving me more time to work a second job, and plan a wedding. I think that's perfectly reasonable and would lighten the stress.

So I know what you're thinking: "why not wait another year and a half to get married?" Seriously? We've been agonizing over having to wait this long, and still have 2 more years to go... and you want us to wait even longer!? Yeah right!! Not happening!! I can't wait to marry this man, and I won't wait any longer than I have to.

Another thought you probably have: "what do the other nursing schools' schedules look like?" Well, it turns out that Baylor's fast-track nursing program would start 2 days after graduation. There is no way I could handle that - wedding or not. 2 days to pack up and leave College Station, move back home, and not have time to even breath before starting up again? That'd be more crazy than getting married 2 weeks after graduation! I also looked into TCU's fast-track program, and found out that theirs starts before I even finish finals in College Station!! Not to mention, I'd have to miss graduation if I somehow managed to be in 2 places at once. So TCU's will not be an option. And as far as UTA goes, they still have yet to post information about their fast-track program, though I've read online from other curious bloggers that if you call, they can give you info over the phone. Sounds kind of sketchy to me...

So where do I go from here? Well, I'm going to ask my career advisor (Kate) on Tuesday during her office hours if I can still do the traditional track after graduating. Nobody has ever said we could or couldn't with a degree, so hopefully she'll say I can go ahead and enter nursing school as if I applied after my second year of college. That would be ideal, and then we can scratch all of this post out and continue with the original plan of getting married in the summer and starting nursing school in the fall. If she says I can't do the traditional route, then I'll have to take it one day - and one decision - at a time. I'd have a lot of thinking to do...

I know I shouldn't stress over all of this because I have plenty of time. But I'm a planner and I would like to know what my future holds. It's exciting but scary. For the first time in a long while, I'm thoroughly confused about what/when things will happen.

Not Ashley

Well, judging by the title of this, I think its safe to say that this isnt Ashley. I dont see myself as a emotional or romantic person, I guess I have my times, or so I have been told. So this may not look like a post Ashley might have, and that was the point of everything above.

Coming into this weekend I was excited to see her, especially since it was going to be such a long weekend. As the post before said, we went to the Ranger game Thursday and then Friday we went to the driving range. I'm sure she tells everyone she is better than me at golf... but thats still to be seen! But she is getting better and Im sure this class is helping her more than anything else could. She got some new golf shoes from my parents for Easter, yes, my parents do easter gifts. (I guess thats what only child privledges get you). But the weekend didnt seem to go as well as we had hoped. I couldnt tell you why. I dont think I have been doing my part. I love her more than anything. I cant wait until we are done with school, because I think that will be the cure all to our problems. I cant wait until we can get married, because then we can start the rest of our lives, knowing that there will always be someone there for each other. Its too bad it cant happen sooner. But we must wait. I wish we could fast forward 2 years. Obviously its not possible, but it would be nice.

Parents weekend is next weekend and I will be there. Next weekend is gonne be great. It has to be. There is no reason for us to be in a "funk". Althought Id like to think that we can fix it on a phone, I dont think thats possible. Therefore, next weekend will be good.

I dont really know how to end this, but I love her more that anything. We were made to be together. We were lucky to find that out at such a young age.

Time Together

So today Phillip and I went to the driving range. I had so much fun just hanging out with him, doing what he enjoys. We went to the Ranger game yesterday too, so I got to spend even more time with him.

And you know, the more time I spend with him, the more I like him. I love him so very much, but liking him is almost as important. I do like him. I enjoy spending time with him. He makes me laugh so much. At times, yes, he frustrates me to no end, but then he just fires a cute comeback and I can't help but laugh. He's so good at that.

Listening to Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

I wish I could see him this weekend. For this semester, I've been so spoiled by getting to see him so much. I got used to seeing him every weekend and now I have to wait until Wednesday.

Looking back, I have no idea how I got through last year. It's been hard keeping up with a long distance relationship while in college, but I think we've done a pretty okay job. We still love each other very much, still have the same goals, and at the same time, haven't compromised our individual education goals. That's pretty incredible in my book - and hopefully in the book's of all who doubted us.

We have two school years and a summer left before we get to see each other every day again. I've forgotten what it feels like to not have to say goodbye. I'm ready to see him every single moment of every single day. I want that so badly.

To everyone who said it would be too hard, ad to everyone who said we'd change to much in college, and to everyone who said we couldn't make it - we've proved you wrong so far and will continue to prove you wrong. You can find your soulmate at 15/16, and it can last through several significant obstacles. We're living proof.

I've never been so sure of anything as I am about my desire to be with him for the rest of my life. Nobody loves me more, knows me better, or wants happiness for me more than him. Who could possibly throw that away for anything in this world?