Dear Phillip

I feel like we haven't had a long conversation in a while. I can't wait for our schedules to slow down and line up so we can talk more.

Love you LOTS!!
Ashley

I'm missing him a lot right now. This week we've been a little tense with each other, with exams and just being busy with our day-to-day lives. But I still wish he were right here next to me, holding my hand.

All morning, I was remembering the night Phillip proposed. Ever since that night, my head has been spinning, and today I got to stop and remember that I have never felt this much love from him ever.

I love him. Period.

Over A Week

I know, it's been quite some time since I've updated this. I've been pretty busy. I went home this past weekend to hang out with all of my friends and family (and of course, Phillip too). It was a great weekend (the girl rearending me aside).

And this week I've been trying to play catch-up, successfully. For the west of the week and into the weekend, I'm going to relax and get ahead for once.

P.S. I miss him again.

Midterms

This week has been pretty filled already and will continue to be filled for the remainder of the week. Why you ask? Because of midterms.

I had two MAJOR midterms yesterday, Phillip has two midterms today and I have yet another one tomorrow. It's a crazy week, filled with studying and keeping outside connections to a minimum. It's been rough, and Phillip and I have tried to talk as much as possible here and there.

It's weeks like these when I realize that I am at school and not just away at camp. It's rigorous, but will be worth it when I recieve that wonderful diploma in May of 2011.

I have a lot of misc. to-dos to complete in the next 48 hours, but know I can get them done. I have willpower, and lots of coffee. Plus, come Friday, I will reap the benefits of a hard week's work. I will have nothing on the agenda for the weekend, and nothing to worry about until Monday evening. I get a nice break for going home to see my family, friends, and fiance (the three Fs, if you will).

But until then, I must work. So it's off to more studying and classes for me.

Don't Turn Around, You're Gonna See My Heart Breaking

That's right - all of my avid readers (aka Heather and Dad) - he's gone again. Gone back to Arlington to spend another week without me.

Luckily this weekend I'll get to spend some more time with him. However, this being spoiled with seeing him every weekend is going to end soon and I'll be in complete and utter shock. But for the time being, he's gone and I'm once again sad to see him go.

It doesn't get easier with less miles between us. It doesn't get easier the more times we have to partake in this sobfest of goodbyes. It doesn't get any easier the less time between opportunities to see each other. It'll only get easier when we don't have to do it anymore.

I can't wait for that day when I'm back for good, when we no longer have to say goodbye, and when our lives are together as one. I'm looking forward to that more than any of you will ever know. :(