It's the Holiday Season

I love love love love LOVE Christmastime!!! It's by far my favorite holiday and I look forward to it every year. This year will be particularly great since I'm feeling closer than ever to Phillip.

I honestly didn't even think I could feel more in love with him. It seems like since we've gotten engaged, we're inseparable and can't get enough of each other! Every time I'm with him, everything seems so right and perfect. So this year's Christmas will be filled with more love than I ever thought possible.

Tonight, I'm decorating my apartment with my roommate. I must admit, the thought makes me wish it was 2 years from now. Phillip and I will be decorating for our first Christmas. That one will probably top the next two - though it's hard to imagine that now.

This time in the year is always the hardest for school and being homesick. I had a taste of family and the holidays this past week and the last thing I want to do is come back here and study for final exams. I have about 2 weeks left here before speeding home to Bedford for a great Christmas!! :D

Happy Thanksgiving!

This year I'm thankful for a whole bunch of things. I have an incredible family that hasn't had to face any tragedies in the past year. I have great friends who always keep me laughing and take care of me when I'm at school. And I have a new fiance that has made all of my dreams come true. Can you get any more blessed than this!?

Burnt Out

Do you ever have those times in your life where you just want to be left alone to your own thoughts? That's me right now. This past week, and even through today, I've just wanted to be alone. I'm so burnt out on school. This week has been a heavy one due to the 10th anniversary of the bonfire collapse. I haven't had any motivation to do anything school-related. I miss Phillip a whole lot. I've been super bored, which gives me entirely too much time to think. And I'm just ready to be home. Hopefully this weekend will let me recharge enough for the last few days here. Then several days at home with great friends and family (and PHILLIP) should give me enough energy for the remainder of the semester.

But what I'm looking forward to the most is Christmas break. I'm ready to be surrounded by people I love and people that love me. I'm ready for a break from school and a slight break from College Station.

I want to be home already.

It Has Been a While...

I do appologize to my dedicated followers for my lack of updating recently. It's not even that anything big has been going on, I guess it's just that I've been so lazy lately. I'm ready for a break from school over Thanksgiving and especially Christmas. I have gone to school with no breaks straight since Christmas of my freshman year. That's right, I mean I've taken classes every summer and even during a wintermester last year. I think it's time for a break with no studying or tests. Perhaps I'll catch up on some leisure reading?

Phillip and I are still great. I love being with him and can't believe how much time I still want to spend with him after all of these years. Lately it seems like half of my friends are getting engaged and the other half are separating or divorcing. It's a mixture of emotions, really. While I have my opinions about specific people on both sides of the spectrum, my overall feeling is completely eclipsed by where I see Phillip and I going. I know we're going to last, mainly because of how our relationship has developed over such a long time. When 5 years feels like 5 months, you know you have a good thing.

Emotional

For the past 36 hours or so, I've been extremely emotional for some reason. I guess it's Phillip leaving and being thrust back into the reality of tests and projects. The weather has also been quite a bit gloomy and depressing.

I got an email from the event coordinator at the ballpark this morning. It turns out, she will be without a job come December 15, and there might be no way of having our reception there. Great. I'm trying not to panic, but instead am trying to figure out who to talk to and what to say to see if there's still a chance. I've kind of been exploring other options, but none can compare to the price or atmosphere that the Ballpark has. I will keep you updated.

For the rest of the week, I have a quiz, a project, and a test. After that, it's a relaxing couple of days and seeing Phillip for about 24 hours. I don't like the shortness of the trip, but it's better than nothing. Lately I've been so attached to him. I have never been in love this much and needed him this often. Hmph.

This next year and a half better fly by faster than it seems like it is already...